I am gonna kill this bitch!

I don’t know where to vent any more I have had it with her. Every time I think about her I just want scream! Christmas was good cause I was in America. She didn’t get me anything even though I gave her my whole pay check to do what ever she wanted with it. I thought that the fact she set up my trip was enough. I didn’t ask AND I didn’t care. But my birthday came and again I didn’t get a thing. Except this; "Good morning and happy birthday! I wish this year will be successful and happy for us! Ganbatte!" I am not so convinced that this was the best she could do. I called a little latter to see what she had to say... no mention. She let me talk to Eric who wished me a Happy Birthday! Strange his mom couldn’t take 2 seconds to say the same thing. I went to dinner with a friend and tried not to dwell on it. I got home that weekend. Friday night and she was not there she was out with her friends. No big deal this was planned ahead of time. But then she came home to change her shoes. Except instead of coming in to the living room where I was and saying for the first time since I seen her, to say happy birthday or even HI!. She snuck in and out with out a word. I heard something and got up to see what it was. As I opened the door I could see the car that she was in drive away. At 230 am she slipped in and didnt say a thing..... just went to bed in Erics bedroom. The next day at 9 or 10 she came in and asked if I had any money, cause she was broke. I felt a little bad... a little sick. I went to the bank and took out 1800 dollars. It was decided that we would go to pick strawberries with the rest of the family. We traveled a 30 min to pick up Koji and his family. Then another hour with the whole family packed in the mini van. We arrived and picked at a price of 45 dollars again from my pocket, strawberries for another 30 minutes to be eaten on site not even to take away. Then got back in the van for anouther hour. My mother in law and I discussed our birthdays and how they were both treated with similar disrespect by her. Later that night a argument insude about why I did not receive a BD present. She said it was cause she did not have any money. But every month I give her 300 bucks just so she wont go and hoe herself as a hostess. The next weekend Eric and I went to wrestling. Satomi came to Tokyo where we met for lunch. It was 5 x what I have ever had paid for lunch usually. But I didn’t mind it was good to be able to do it. We walked around Dikayama and then took a train to Shibuya. We went directly to Shibuya and 109 (a iconic shopping store). She went to 1 or 2 stores and I really didn’t care that she spent a ton of cash. But I couldnt belive after 2 weeks she still had nothing for my birthday. She obviously had plenty of money. We went to Shinjuku and had a dinner that she paid for after I lost my temper and berated her on the street for buying all this shit. She told me she wants to move to Tokyo and have another baby. I told her allot will have to change before that happens. Really I don’t think it can happen. She is not the same person I married. She doesn’t believe in me. Even after everything I accomplished. I have moved to the same level as Satomis father. Despised by my wife and used only as a ATM. I want to cry when I think about it when I think about it some times. Its my mess I made now I have to think about how I am going to figure out how to get out of it. I dont think fixing anything is a option. IN SHORT: Satomi told me she never celebrates her fathers birthday. I know she hates him. That makes me the same as him I guess a quick e-mail is not a birthday present or even acknowledgement. She complains about money all the time even though I give her $1500.00 EVERY MONTH! Yes she pays my rent and 750 and my cell phone 100. That leaves a lot extra that is supposed to go into Eric’s savings account. I don’t know but I hope so. Satomi lately has done allot of things for me, but it is nothing that I did not do for her in the 5 years in America. Plane tickets travel arrangements and driving test stuff. But now the allowance will be severed until she starts to act like my wife not my dependant. E./